AEP

I am returning back to my hometown for career pathway in next month. So many things I have to leave here and tonnes of kg's stuff to be carried back . Everything happened for the past few years ago were just like a blink of eyes, way too fast to be recalled. Somehow I did really enjoying living alone and surviving alone in this city of adventurous .

couldn't do anything more... what else should I do ?

Achievement

Here come the post and I shall reveal soon something new is in my hand... you might have to scroll down a lil bit later to know it.
I've been not taking care of my diet lately.... hence my weight is going up now first ever in my life.. over 61kgs .. just weighted it on the weight a moment ago which is a good news for me... however I am not really satisfy with the result. My abdomen 6 packs became 2 pieces of "tires" . Commonly said , fats; obesity ; big belly :( my goal is to gain 75 kgs at least before I started to hit the gym daily.
Thought of updating my blog once I come back to Kl from Kuantan this week but I am too lazy to think out something really interesting yet fun to blog about. Seriously I am out of idea nowadays about blogging something. Hmmmm.... I shall read more books and novels starting from today... for what ? of course some inspiration... idea... plotting ...

Ohh yea I'm planning to travel around Malaysia for food blogging. Probably it will be done in one or two years time depends on my availability. yessssss I love food so much.. for certain people they might love clothes and accessories shopping so much, so do I but mine is different. FOOD SHOPPING. (:

Sweets , candies and everything nice are always the best companion when you need some inspiration. I couldn't control the temptation when I saw sweets and candies inside the store. I might going in and at least purchased few type of them in one time. I just love sweets and candies so much. Don't you think they are somehow play important role in your life when your mood is down, you need someone to talk with and cheer you up. They are sweet enough to make yourself become who you are and obviously make your smile sweet ever .

One of my childhood favorite

and the thing I want to reveal is:


Start running on the road... let me overtake your lane k ? love my baby bronze so much.

countdown 3 days left when someone is coming back from Thailand soon...

miss her voice
her text
her emo
her myvi
her se
her smile & laugh
her eyes
and everything about her

you know who you are...

I am true and real now, later..... and so goes on in your heart (:

Hoong

tablets of the happiness

Recently , I've found myself hardy to get into sleep and yes I'm having insomnia every night. This is a serious issue for myself and it could affect my job on the next day. Having lack of sleep would cause someone to have a very bad tempered due to the overheat in our body and hence it would ruined up the mood of insomnia patient. Sigh~ there's nothing I could do other than trying to take eramine ;common name as know as sleeping pills for those insomnia patient. What the hell I'm talking now... keep mentioning about 'insomnia patient'. Guess I gotta seek for doctor consultation if problem still occur. Don't worry peeps I would never ever take drugs in my life eventhough they might be helping me and could affect my health as well in the future.

Whooopps !! The first paragraph was successfully typed and now I'm going to continue for the rest.
Yea a lots of recently these few days...

Recently:

I realised that im actually abandoned my buddies along these few years no matter what events and gathering they are organizing, I will be disappointing them in the end. Sorry guys , tried my best and I believe in the future I'm still trying to figure it out.

Some love matters happening around me. I've been confusing all the time and made a clear things a moment ago. Whatever career is the most important thing to me right now.

Thought something really lucky in my career at first but it was so so only . Checked... Clear!

clear throats*

it's 2.43a.m 18 of October 2010 now and I'm waiting the day to arrive.
something really big is coming soon and I shall reveal it soon. stay tuned (:

Tribute to my dear beloved grandpa 1914-2010

"Grandpa, how does this tool works?", asked me while keep on figuring out how to use his handmade 'lastik" from cow's horn. And how he showed me last time ..... PIAK!!! He shot one of then aluminum can outside from the window. I grabbed the "lastik" and feel the artistic artwork from him. What an amazing artwork and genius brain he had there hence I'm trying to convince him by asking him to give me as a gift to show off my schoolmates. He agreed without thinking but my mom doesn't allow me to take it back because she said it would hurt anyone if this weapon misuse at out there. So I never get it back but everytime when my mom brought us back to grandpa house, the most excited person would be me cuz why ? hahahha I can play with the "lastik" again.

My mom would bring us visit our grandparents once a week, sooner twice a month and so goes on. My grandpa owned a small orchard at his place. There were rambutans tree, durian tress, mangosteen trees, ciku trees, cempedak and nangka trees and lots of them to describe them out. So, every fruit season, my mom would bring us back grandpa house to pluck some fruits. My grandpa know how to made his own plucking pole. "ciakkkkkkkkk" sounds from the broken small branch of rambutan trees and we would pick up those rambutans dropped on the ground. Peel their skin and enjoy the fresh juicy rambutan in our mouth. Our grandpa would smile on everyone of us.

It's the time for story telling from my grandpa. He told everyone of us how he fought with the Japanese, how he works with government, how he socialize with others and etc. I would never feel boring listening to his story. I think he was the greatest grandpa in this world .

Sooner years by years, my grandpa getting older and older. He couldn't barely walked steadily and needs help everytime. Last year he was admitted to hospital due to his urinary tract infection. He keep on recovering and get infected back. I was worried that time and my mom keep calling me telling how's my grandpa condition; glad that he's slowly recovering after that. He started to wake up from bed by his own under my mom's care but sooner he told my mom he wanna back to own house and take care of my grandma. He not yet fully recover but he insisted that he wants to do so. My mom doesn't have any choices other than respect his decision . Sooner that, his urinary system infected again and he was so skinny compared to last time before he back his home from my mom's home. He's so weak and he got to admitted to hospital once again. Few months later he recovered a lil bit and my mom asked him to stay with her so that she could take care of him often. She even brought my grandma down so that he won't miss her and my grandma could take care of him. Sooner he get recovered fully and he can even walked lil bit. Everyone of us were so happy he can walk in front of us. He said he wanna go back to my uncle's house (mom's elder brother). My mom respect his decision and sent him and grandma back to uncle's house. Things getting climax when his condition getting worse. Once again, he's getting skinnier and thinner. The last time I saw him at my mom house before Chinese New Year. I regret so much didn't take picture with him and this is the only one of his picture when he still healthy. I think 2 years back ago.

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Last Friday night, 19th of March 2010, 8pm something, when I was having my hairdressing I've received a call from my mom and she said grandpa passed away with sobbing. I was like frozen for few seconds before I believe what exactly am I listening and I left the saloon sooner ;without thinking too much, grab few black shirts and clothes back to Kuantan on the same night. I keep crying and sobbing inside the bus couldn't believe what my mom told me and felt asleep later.

Mom said grandpa passed away peacefully when sleeping that time. He didn't hold his fists and everyone of use for sure know that he left this world peacefully. Rest in peace my dear beloved grandpa. For the last respect, 3 of us siblings without my youngest sister, as his beloved grandchildren accompanied him on the last night before the cremation. We take turns to burn dead people money for him. I slept for few hours only that night and continue burnt early in the morning for few hours. I did really miss him a lots. Somehow I wished everytime I see him sleeping inside the coffin, someone would wake me up from the dream and I was so stupid to think all these. It was a reality and he's gone. I lost my precious in my life and lots of tears for him these few days. May you rest in peace, grandpa. I love you forever. You're a mighty and great leader, good human, good people and lovely grandpa in our hearts. We miss you so much and hope you do. :''(

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feeling so lonely at this moment.